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Conscious Surrender is the best course of action

A lot of people have been asking what they should ‘do’ about 21/12/12…I got this message this morning in meditation and was impelled to share…. …

There is no Mayan Calendar. It is an external representation of the inner workings and labyrinths of the collective mind. It ends on 21/12/12 because it is now up to each individual to input into the collective and make a new ‘reality ’as is the right of every God-Being in the realms of existence.

 The reason why so many are feeling the ‘pressure’ is because the collective mind is experiencing the symbolic and (in illusion) actual ‘pull’ of the gravitational force of the central black (w)hole of our own centre of emptiness as we switch paths from outer to inner.

 Like a return of the prodigal son, we are on our way home after aeons of estrangement from our resting place of stillness having inaccurately identified our Self with the reflection of light rather than its source – which is, and always has been, the irrefutable Truth of our being.

 The effect of this is one of drawing the ‘chakras’- which in themselves are symbols of the seven divisions of separation – fantastically out of ‘line’ as we are prepared by the universal force to return to a central alignment, the likes of which was only experienced at the onset of the original separation countless lifetimes ago.

 As this happens, there will be a window of escape from our current time space interpretation of ‘reality’ into the wormhole of the sheer emptiness of existence which is Truth. Naturally, the ego mind will squirm with fear of its annihilation!

The best path of action in the face of obliteration of what is actually redundant- having served its purpose of demonstrating duality and separation - is a conscious surrender to the re-tuning of your inner pathways and network. This will happen both on a gross and a subtle level; the final outcome being a conglomerate of collective thoughts and corresponding sensations that will take place in the energetic field we call ‘the world’.

Resistance is futile…. And actually creates suffering for you. Try not to conceptualise by way of thought or thought projections what you think is ‘happening’ as this will create countless stories of ‘good vs. evil’, ‘spiritual vs. gross’ and so on. Just let the ego mind take a back seat and tune into the sensations which must be faced with perfect equipoise and stillness; i.e., if you feel terror for example, watch the terror with a mind of awareness and detachment and do not react further which will only create a perpetual loop of continuous terror. If you are able to stabilise in this type of observation, the ‘roller coaster’ feeling will soon pass away revealing the peace and spaciousness that underlies it.

 Do not flinch in the face of intense sensations…these are going on in the field of your own mind but there is nothing going on ‘out there’…it’s just an illusion created by our own mind to keep you in the game of separation.

Be still and know that you are the One

Who made it all up in the first place

Death to the Bogie Man...

Every life and supposed duration lived with conscious awareness only ever leads you to one single point;

This one!

Today a small miracle occurred and there was a degree of liberation from the idea that there is a better ‘me’ waiting to be met at some time in the future, or there was a better me that I left behind at some time in the past. It crept up out of the blue and left a warm fuzzy feeling in my usually cluttered brain and I have absolutely no idea how it happened.

It could have been the years of spiritual grafting, endless book reading and copious amounts of brown rice that lead here; it could have been the stunning aromas of spring that aired my clogged up nostrils as I inhaled the wafting smell of hyacinths deeply into my ‘winter damp’ drenched lungs ; or it could have been the unparalleled visual of the shimmering ocean glistening in the virgin rays of the newly birthed equinox that assailed my optical senses; but it’s most likely it was my momentary distraction by a rather large obstruction in my facial breathing apparatus, eventuating in the gratifying extraction of a rather large clag from my left nostril…(AKA bogie picking), that’s got to be it. Because following that unplanned action, I observed that the left hemisphere of my brain suddenly received a rush of chi and lo, I suddenly understood the bus time table for the first time and realised why I was always late everywhere except for here!

I decided to throw away my top heavy habituation of analysing everything and suddenly realised that I was enjoying myself. It was a shocking affair that resulted in a happy facial countenance. Later that day, I decided that I never want to examine the contents of my rectum again but before I say bon voyage to the ongoing rather cavernous inspection of the contents therein, here are just a few thoughts to ponder over…

Death by linear time
Living in ‘over there’ creates very uncomfortable sensations overwhelming the internal and external body giving rise to the impulse of wanting to run away from everything… I know most of you must have felt the heaviness of the Christmas 2010 period, followed by a 2011 that arrived with the subtlety of a freight train; a turning of a year like no other! January felt as if it was wearing a cloak of darkness + lead weights, and many people spoke of suicidal thoughts and a heaviness that threatened to squeeze the very life force out of them.

The pressures that individuals and the world is undergoing in this time are an indication of a ‘disturbance in the force’ if you will. When such disturbances occur it is usually the result of the changes brought on through an increase in light frequency causing the lower body and the higher body to conflict as they attempt to harmonise into one. When there is divergence such as this, there is always a resulting ‘taking of sides’; some people are becoming more bestial and primal, while others are diving semi fledged into the ‘spiritual scene’ – each supposed ‘choice’ neglecting the other. But neither sides are unified and therefore do not represent the truth.

The death of Death
This period of time marks the death of linear time and a birthing into oneness; no more duality and separate concepts, just one. It is a breaking of a seal with trumpets intact; a heralding of the end of linear time and everything that goes with it; 9-5 jobs, planning your life years ahead or even a week ahead, and indulging in end gaining activities. All of these belong to the linear consciousness and in our case; this type of consciousness is mainly based in thoughts of survival or self gratification and ‘if’ thinking; i.e., if I don’t do this, then this will happen etc, leading to a fear of loss of control of the events in our lives which we associate with ‘my life’.

In effect, death and linear time are synonymous because the concept of time with a beginning and an end leads inexorably, to death. This means that liberation from linear time changes the ideas we have about death and instead of an end, death becomes a simple shift in consciousness… However, our minds have a deep ‘death imprint’ that is currently being challenged by the light. The world wants to remind us, through sensationalist media reports on various disasters, that we are finite and expendable, so inciting fear into our minds, causing contraction and imprisonment and reinforcing the idea that we are nothing beyond the body.

The shift of beliefs away from body consciousness toward unified consciousness requires an enormous leap of faith. For some the idea of loss of the body is terrifying because we have to acknowledge the drastic change in our entire thought process; a real re-wiring of all concepts and beliefs. It’s a little bit like the baby lion that was brought up by a herd of sheep believing he was a sheep and then finally seeing his true reflection for the first time; all those ideas about himself shattered by the truth to reveal the real identity!

Light is like a mirror – smashing illusory concepts and ideas to smithereens. During this time many unpleasant emotions may arise, like depression, self loathing, guilt or incandescent rage. This was the case for me, especially following a Kriya Yoga retreat I did in January: Some brutish urge arose in me to run through the streets naked making guttural uterine sounds but, unnaturally I had to deny it for fear of having turpentine injected into my legs and confined to a small hidden place where such behaviour could be constrained because ‘that sort of thing just isn’t allowed’ unless your rabidly drunk on a weekend of venting how unfulfilling your job/life is. Under the guise of ‘having a good time’ one can vent a certain degree of rage against the machine, otherwise, it’s all kept nicely under wraps.

But there is something greater than the lifestyle of small minded control that attempts to direct and ‘manage’ existence; and that thing is making itself felt on every level; physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. For carbon units that can’t handle the surges of increased frequency, the scenario may turn into huge venting dramas, but for those who have primed their units, influxes of light might have very different consequences. Some people believe that we are literally being upgraded to crystalline units in order to handle the shift, but the truth is, we have no idea who or what we really are or what kind of secret imprints are lurking in our system awaiting activation – and I believe that is what ‘revelations’ is all about.
Some say that it is this year that will determine the events for 2012; perhaps this year is the real weapon of mass destruction…so be careful how you use it!

It seems that we are definitely being pushed to entertain thoughts of alternate ‘realities’; to wake up; to step out of our small minded relationship with life and take a more expansive and inclusive view: Realities are nothing more that dimensions of thoughts, or perspectives. We have many types of consciousness available to us other than survival, sex money and power which is all the world seems concerned about. However that doesn’t mean that you should deny the lower self and get all sanctimonious. The saying ‘the meek shall inherit the earth’ does not refer to those who spout on about how much light is pouring out of their anal chakra but rather to those who are in quiet harmony and simplicity with life. The ones who believe they have reached some sacred level of elevation may be sorely disappointed when they are shown that ‘that’s not it’.

Being in a place of oneness means, being inwardly still enough to allow inner depth and simultaneous elevation to occur all at once. But it has to be said that present conditions are pressing and our minds are running wild with our smaller selves trying to assume control of such a large amount of energy that our minds have become erratic. In the face of seeming adversity, being still feels like an impossible feat. Still, all the great illumined minds speak of this mighty challenge and how it must be overcome. Even though you might hear reports of people who attain liberation randomly (whilst reading the Sun newspaper on the toilet), it doesn’t mean that they did not previously create the conditions for this random event to occur. The truth is, the whole spiritual path is a mystery that no-one can label, but sooner or later we will come to the realisation that the mind is a very small part of reality and has nothing to do with who or what we really are. When this is understood, the heaviness will drop, like an old skin no longer required, and liberation will take its place in our evolution.

But until then random acts of bodily grooming will have to suffice…

Karma Ends Here

Oops, everything has gone non-linear and is appearing not to follow any rational course of events like it used to in the past.

Whereas one was previously able to make plans and follow them to an apparent logical conclusion, now it appears that 1+1 =3 or any other random number that might pop up without any reason.

Our little reign of the ‘I’ is almost over and along with it, our small dreams of ‘ruling the world’, being successful and any other self seeking pursuits we might have cherished, (that's 'Self seeking' with a large S, not self inquiry!) If we find this prospect grim and ‘negative’ it’s only because we are still in the clutches of ‘I, me, myself’ and are therefore still seeking some kind of resolution or conclusion to the endless dilemma that has plagued the mind ever since we stepped out of wholeness and into separation.

As soon as there is separation, there is seeking for wholeness and even though wholeness has never actually gone anywhere and has always been with us in plain view; that single tiny mad thought which hurled us into the dark reaches of aloneness has held its empire fast for countless millennia. It has imprisoned the senses and used them as its allies to keep us locked in a world of separation.

I never was much of a mathematician but if I were to give an equation for the current state, it would be something like this:

1 + 1 = 2, OR separation and aloneness (with a huge dose of guilt because we believe we’ve messed things up!) But it cannot be ‘solved’ by 2-1 to = 1 again, because that would still equal separation and aloneness. This is because the ego self or ‘I’ cannot subtract ‘I’ from itself, it cannot annihilate itself and in fact fears its own extinction most of all, so it NEVER can or will end its own reign over its imaginary world; in other words, unity or oneness cannot be entered into from a state of duality: It already IS. Therefore the only possible standpoint is to ‘see’ 1, as it is and has always been.

The moment is fast approaching where all will be revealed.

What this means in so called practical terms is that ‘mine’ and ‘your’ worlds are falling apart. There is no rhyme or reason in this and the more you try to find one, the more it slips out of your personal reach. All the beliefs and thoughts we have had about life and reality are being dismantled and although this may appear to be happening rather ruthlessly, (or wather wuthlessly if you speak like Jonathan Ross), it only appears this way because we have held on to these flimsy ideas for so long that we have forgotten our true identity and settled for a shadowy excuse for being alive.

Although, strictly speaking, we cannot enter oneness from two-ness, we can move towards the edge of the veil of duality and make a degree of preparation through willingness and readiness for Grace to come and pluck us out of the cycle at some random moment. This apparent movement seems to be occurring on a collective level with various structures falling down and coming to an end both externally and internally. The increasing revelation that there is NOTHING that we can do about ANY of this, is an enormous shock and disillusionment for the egoic ‘I’ self which has delusion ally believed that ‘he’ is in control of it all. Now, he must watch helplessly while the walls of his Jericho tumble down.

This ‘un-doing’ is a pivotal point in the evolution of the image of humankind, for although in the grand unlimited spectrum of all, nothing has or is actually happening, the appearance of this series of small and large events serves to shake down the ego, enough for oneness to override the illusion of duality and express the idea of ‘salvation’. This will bring the idea of cause an effect to an abrupt end, for it is only through cause and effect that we are kept imprisoned in the suffering of Samsara.

The mind is addicted to cause and effect, or, to put it another way, seeking resolution to its apparent separate state. If you doubt this, just sit quietly without external distractions and observe it for 5 minutes. You will notice that images and ideas bombard the mind constantly and due to egoic interference we imagine that these thoughts belong to us and are all seeking a conclusion and a destination. From this root delusion; i.e., that we must ‘do something’ about ‘our’ thoughts, the whole idea of sickness arises: I feel a sensation and memory tells me that it must be ‘this or that’; e.g., a sore throat must be a cold, an aching joint must be arthritis etc, etc, and therefore this or that will happen as a result of having this ailment or disease. Thus, my thought has reached a destination and I have drawn conclusions about the initial idea, placing it in a group of like ideas, in this case, ideas about disease, and constructing an imaginary reality about that thought.

It may seem to you that you have not ‘done’ anything except made some judgements and drawn various conclusions but this in itself is a subtle act of doing and creates division, fragments and factions; setting some thoughts up against others, e.g., good and bad, right and wrong, success and failure, and so on. Eventually, these thoughts are manifested in speech “I’m getting a cold”, and then in actions, “I’m going to the Dr.” These thoughts, conclusions and resulting actions run our world and form powerful imprints in our minds that become habituated into behaviours like anger, leading to thoughts and actions of vengeance. The ultimate manifestation of division is WAR, against ourselves and others.

The mind will ask of course ‘What can I do to fix it?’ and herein lies the problem; the more ‘you’ try to fix it, the more dualistic it will become because seeking to change something and make it ‘become’ something other than itself is perpetuating the cycle of cause and effect.

And if you follow this line of reasoning, the ultimate question must be:
WHO OR WHAT AM I?

Ask this question, but do not think about the answer; do not answer with your mind and see what happens. By and by, you will see, you are NOT your thoughts.

We have reached the edge of the precipice; the end of karma: it is a place where the mind and the intellect cannot go. It is a place where thoughts do not own you nor do you identify with them; it is the place where all dreams begin and end and all identities fold in, fall away and diminish into the emptiness from whence they came.

Those who wish to perpetuate the continuation of cause and effect will continue to look for reasons and make adjustments to the ‘dream’; they will continue to identify with anger, fear and desire. Whereas those who wish to be freed will stand very still and allow the wave of actions and reactions to wash over them whilst they maintain focus on the arising and passing of various sensations that appear to be experienced within the field of the body.

And then, at the appointed moment, will jump into the waiting arms of consciousness and be caught with the unconditional love that has been waiting for us

Forever…

You cannot make it happen

But you can be willing and available

May we all fly like free birds
And end the cycle of suffering

Guiltless and Free

There never really was a fall from grace. All that happened is a thought about separation which expanded into an entire scenario and became an imaginary continuum. Did you do anything wrong? No, because there never was anyone there to do anything. In actuality nothing happened- or is happening- except projections on a neutral screen of a movie called ‘my life’.

And yet the judgement of ourselves for what we feel is the responsibility – or more accurately – the reaction, to separating ourselves from the One Source is a life time of self inflicted pain; in every way we can imagine plus a few extra ones thrown in when the cat o’ nine tails wears out. (For those who have no idea what this is, it’s a type of multi-tailed whipping device that originated as an implement for severe physical punishment).

The pain of making ourselves ill, driving ourselves into the ground with achievement to reach a place where we feel better about ‘me’, punishing ourselves with diets, exercise, restrictions and endless judgements about how ‘bad’ we are, how ‘unlovable’ we are, how we can never be happy until… etc, etc. These are all the bitter grapes of a mind that is constantly reacting to a deep and often imperceptible state of guilt.

But you didn’t do anything wrong and there is no-one who is going to rack you to a cross and crucify you.

Except that is, yourself.

Recently, a realisation arose in my mind. It was that in all these seeming years on my journey through the apparent passage of time, I have lived in reaction to something. First it seems that these reactions are gross, for instance, I receive a bill and have to generate income to pay it, or I have an illness and go to the Dr. for medication, or another apparent someone crashes into ‘my’ car and I react by getting out and jumping up and down like a baboon. But the more layers that got peeled off through meditation, especially the Vipassana technique, the more I saw that these were simply guises for a less perceptible, more subtle disturbance in the flow of things. In other words, reactions within reactions!

Focusing awareness yet deeper, a primal chasm was revealed that had an association with separation from a singularity and a subsequent creation of ‘me’. This so called independent creation, supposedly invented by ‘me’, constantly expresses its fundamental flaw in the continual discomfort of separation; which is guilt and then judgement plus shame. This very low frequency state, i.e., guilt, has been defined as:
‘A feeling of responsibility or remorse for some offence, crime, wrong, etc., whether real or imagined.’ Emphasis on imagined!

It is fundamentally flawed because it is based on the illusion that we are separate entities in control of our lives, performing a series of actions for which we are completely and irreversibly responsible.

For some, to contemplate a life without guilt would cause a reaction of anger as they immediately reel from the idea that everyone is guiltless. Because who would be responsible for everything that is wrong with the world and especially all the things that were/are done to ‘me’ and ‘my’ loved ones. Not to mention, it would bring an end to all the Jerry Springer, Trisha, Jeremy Kyle BS shows in which people in supposed modern day situations are thrown to the lions of ignorance where they are judged en masse and given some version of a sentence. (Has anything really changed since biblical times?) We are actually quite addicted to it and find it hard to contemplate life without it.

The anger that arises in the mind when it is affronted with the idea that we are not what we think we are and neither is the so called ‘tangible’ world, is the consequence of limiting yourself to a set of circumstances and then, believing in them whole heartedly to the point where the constrictions of your ‘movie’ run your life. I.e., ‘I’ am human, this is ‘my’ life, this is my family, my house, my car, and my job and these are my things. These people are ‘good’, these people are ‘bad’. Anything that threatens ‘me’ and ‘mine’ is BAD and anything that enhances my idea of happiness is ‘GOOD’. I watch the news and judge that these events I have heard about are ‘bad’, therefore, the ones who I believe have perpetrated them are also ‘bad’ and deserve punishment. And so on and so forth until there are layers upon layers of stories about all kinds of imaginary things.

It is endless; it is reactive; it perpetuates the cycle of guilt, revenge and suffering… and it is all occurring within the realm of perception. In fact, it’s all back to front just like Alice’s wonderland. Just a quick note here: I’m sure you remember from human biology at school that when light photons are projected into your eyes that your initial perception sees things upside down. It is only when the brain turns them the right way up that you ‘see’ what it is you think you are seeing. And our whole lives are lived back to front where we really believe that we are the victim of these image-inary perceptions

Of course, the instant reaction, when one has become aware of such flaws in our ‘reality’ is ‘well, how do ‘I’ fix it? And hence another cycle of events around ‘fixing it’ begin. But the truth is; you CAN’T fix it. Think of it in this way. If you were watching a film at the cinema, you wouldn’t try to fix it but merely enjoy it (or not ,if it’s crap!) and in any case observe it. The reason you wouldn’t care too much to fix it is because you would be aware that it s just a film, not a reality.

The ‘way out’ sign hangs over the spontaneous realisation that ‘I’ and everything in ‘my’ world is absolutely illusory – a phantom of smoke in the mist that can suddenly disappear as if it were nothing. However, this 'seeing' of the way things are rather than as you would like them to be is absolutely impossible to grasp with the ‘I’ because it is continuously occurring outside the format of ‘I’. Like a niggling itch that cannot be scratched, the ‘I’ forever seeks the dissolution of itself but through its seeking, ensures it will never attain the liberation it desires. Liberation is constantly and freely offered through every nuance of life itself but ‘you’ cannot have it. This is the grand paradox; it cannot be done. It can be, however, reached for with intent and the decision of renunciation.

Contrary to accepted belief, renunciation is not about reducing your wardrobe to a loin cloth and living alone in the wilderness with no external needs except the occasional handful of rice. Renunciation is more about recognising that what the world is offering absolutely cannot give you lasting happiness, freedom or anything that is permanently worthwhile or meaningful. You might protest and say – well what about this or that, what about love? But is love really an offering from the world, or an inner state that has nothing to do with externalities? Most of the deepest and most meaningful incidents in our lives happen outside of time and space, often through a mysterious movement of grace, and have nothing to do with the world, but in the true style of one who is imprisoned in the dream, we continue to credit them to the ‘world’: ‘If only I can get/have, then I’ll be happy…’. It is all a type of seeking, from coveting a gold plated Rolls Royce to attaining enlightenment.

In the cycle of suffering much is promised but very little is actually delivered and we remain in a constant state of longing for that ‘one thing’ that is going to end the constant search; the ‘one thing’ that will make it alright so that we may lay down our heads and finally get some real peace. We say, ‘that’s the way life is, that’s the way humans are’ etc. If you are content to live out your life in this manner then please, with all the goodwill in the world, go ahead. Traipsing down a path as narrow as a razor’s edge isn’t everyone’s idea of fun (not even mine) and there’s no guarantee of any results in this life or even the next 1,000 but if you are compelled then what can be done?

And this brings us back to the choicelessness of what you are. You may think you are in control, that you make decisions about this or that and choose different things and this is all true, in the dream. But when you awaken from that dream, you see that these choices held no substance because the scenario in which they ywere played out was entirely illusory. Nothing happened; You are not what you think and this so called ‘reality’ is not what it seems but one thing is for sure and that is, you are not guilty of anything at all.

In the cycling and re-cycling of souls we have all been everyone and done everything; played all the roles and are now ready for the final part of the play. It is the role of self forgiveness because your innocence is and always has been perfectly intact; what you have always searched for is right here. The difference between this time and the ‘old school days’ is that liberation is readily available in any moment now. Your case is dismissed. You can go Home! Any moment you start to see the stage instead of the actors, the screen instead of the movie. Any moment you see the background instead of the foreground which is where the quiet revolution is constantly and effortlessly occurring, offering itself to be seen…

Any moment now…

The Choicelessness of What you are

The illusion of choice is one of the greatest fabrications projected from and onto the human mind. It is the idea that keeps you searching and struggling when the truth is infinitely and eternally simple and ever present.

If I were an egomaniac – and, make no mistake, ‘I’ am, I would want to be in control of all things in the range of my awareness and choose among the illusion of infinite possibilities that are presented by my perception so that I could maintain a charade of power over ‘my’ domain at all times.

But what would be the purpose of such limiting behaviour?

A sense of security for the illusion of the I; a crazy idea that ‘I’ will live forever; some insane belief that ‘my’ domain is indestructible and the maddest of all, that ‘I’ can take ‘your’ energy, make it my own, conquer ‘you’ and increase ‘my’ power and, of course, rule the world.

Now that’s what I call ridiculously deluded, but it’s a game that we love to play. In fact, we’ve played it for so long with such gusto that we really, really, believe in its authenticity and have all kinds of ideas invested in this chimera. Actually, we are obsessed with these games and take them very seriously indeed. All of these games are about power rather than love. One of the things associated with taking power from others is the recurring dream about MONEY. This particular illusion causes more neurosis than almost anything else and is actually the cause of disruption, destruction, death and any other negative position you can think of that begins with ‘d’ (if your short on pointless activities to pass illusory time).

Everything around it is extremely sombre. For instance, ‘I’ (at least I think it was me), was walking home one day when I saw a security man transferring money from a bank in an armoured case, to an armoured car with an armoured expression on his stony face. He had various weapons about him, including a truncheon and a gun – notice money and guns are often seen together- just in case someone came to relieve him of the paper squares with pictures on them, which were locked in this reinforced container. People who attempt this are often placed in other reinforced containers or violently assaulted with weapons, and then their faces are broadcast on the television or in the newspapers.

I just wanted to burst out laughing, it was so comical to witness the bizarre appearance of this clumpy man and his artillery in a high street filled with people trying to improve their lives by purchasing items of limited use. They were also carrying paper squares with pictures on them, but theirs were ‘legally owned’ ‘ because they were ‘earned’ by performing activities known as ‘work’ and they were therefore permitted to possess these paper squares until they were exchanged for objects. After this, the paper shapes would again be returned to the bank where they would later be carried out in another re-enforced box, ad infinitum.

Sounds utterly preposterous when you put it that way but the world wants you to be so stressed about money that you can’t see straight. There’s a stupid game we all take part in called; ‘listen to me whine about my bills’. In this game, the players make depressed, anxious faces and bleat at great lengths about their lot and how hard it is for them to survive in the world. In the midst of this, their features usually contort and display a great deal of tension. Many of the people who take part in this game do have some money and are usually able to meet their basic needs, but there is a struggle related with their version of life that they believe comes down to the paper squares with someone’s face on them.

The point is, that it is the association that causes the depression, not the object that it is projected on. I recently decided, that after years of not having very much money – i.e. the kind of amount that can purchase luxury items of greater financial value than those purchased at, say, shops where items are normally made of low grade polyester, that I would conduct an experiment or, if you like, play a game called, ‘I am rich’. In this game, I would conduct behaviours that emanated the performances of the extremely prosperous and thereby magnetise my surrounding field to draw financial abundance in my general direction. This would accomplish 2 things: 1. it would break the spell that I have projected upon myself concerning belief in poverty and 2. It would provide me with enough paper squares to accomplish feats that required greater amounts of them… I’ll keep you informed on results!

Contrary to what the world wants you to believe, money does not save lives nor make anything better but might merely provide an energetic means to anaesthetise you to the conditions of the dream and make them seemingly more pleasant to tolerate.

Bear with me; I am getting to a point

Another game that is frequently played is ‘I am the authority and you are under my jurisdiction.’ In this game, burly people with very stern faces exhibit hostile behaviour with the intent to make you feel intimidated so that you may cower in their presence and possibly confess to some crime you had absolutely no association with (yet another game called crime and punishment).

For example, you travel to a foreign country, say, the USA. You arrive at the passport control and are interrogated by men or women with very; very serious faces asking very, very serious questions in robotically monotonous voices that make you query whether their original forms have been replaced by pod men in the middle of the night. The inquiries are usually concerning ‘the nature of your visit to the U.S. because everyone who isn’t ‘me’ is a potential terrorist. ‘You may be carrying sharp items in your luggage such as eyebrow tweezers or toothpicks with which you may perform crimes that constitute a threat to the welfare of the state and therefore I must ask you to come with me’. Well, guess what; the dictionary defines terrorism as: ‘a person who terrorises or frightens others’ and trust me, after an encounter with the American inquisition, you will definitely feel terrorised.

Yes my friends, we have become so wrapped up in these BS stories that we are falling further and further into the bottomless pit called ‘my narcissistic neuroses’ (and friends). So how did we come to this?

Well, let’s see:
Once upon a time there were these life forms that became so used to believing in separation that they started to think that they were real people with real lives who owned houses, cars, children; had jobs, relationships; got ill, grew old and died– And these people started playing more complicated roles because they forgot what they really were and where they had come from. Eventually they became so wrapped up in their own BS, they actually started trying to destroy each others projections in an effort to uphold the pretence around their silly stories, eliminating anything that might threaten their illusion… and this, in a nutshell, is the definition of life in our world.

If you think that this could not possibly be us try this quick quiz:

Quiz title: Are you willing to let go of everything that defines you and fall helplessly into the bottomless pit called zero with absolutely no assurance of survival…

1. Someone disagrees with absolutely everything you stand for. Do you
a) Shoot him
b) Take him to a Japanese torture camp and systematically brainwash him until he doesn’t know who he is anymore and agrees with anything and everything you say
c) Watch crap soaps on TV until your eyes turn square and you can’t remember who you are , who he is and what he disagreed with in the first place

2. Someone bashes a hole in your car door with a large hammer. Would you
a) Bash a hole in their head with a larger hammer
b) Sell them as a slave to the black market slave trade and reimburse your car fees
c) Have a cold one and forget about it

3. You have everything you’ve ever worked for and owned swallowed up by a huge tsunami called the taxman. Would you:
a) Rob a Mafiosi member and reimburse yourself
b) Wail to God until you sound like Rod Stewart and then get a mullet to complete the image
c) Have cup of tea, eat Mr Kipling’s cakes and contemplate life without any possessions

4. A huge mammoth like creature comes out of a space ship in the middle of the night and demands your lifelong allegiance to a cause you’ve never heard of. Would you:
a) Finally use your years of geek study and speak to it in Mammothian Yekula pointing out the errors in the spaceship landing and how you could swap navigation lessons for your freedom
b) Explode the weapons of mass destruction you have had hiding in your cellar in the event of times such as these
c) Tell him you need to go to the bathroom and slip out the back way for a swift half at the local. Once there mull over the implications of sharing the planet with large mammothites and whether or not they would hog the remote on TV nights

(Note: this ridiculous quiz does not bear any relation to anything at all and is merely there for distraction and entertainment purposes in the bland hope that we might forget about our neurosis for an instant and slip into holy awakening)

I could go on but I think I’ve drivelled enough…

Furthermore, there are stories about lots of other things like lawsuits, domestic feuds, robberies, riots, politics: a quick word here -this is actually a very entertaining game where the actors conduct a play full of twisted half truths, unfulfilled promises, bluffs and gargantuan mistakes followed by limp apologies and never enough compensation. These displays are generally performed by players who believe that putting on a stripy blue suit alone should win them an Oscar but they are, in fact the most delusional of the entire array of contenders – next to the religious fanatics. Other stories include relationships, careers, the pharmaceutical industry, different kinds of animal flu and their own special vaccinations, spiritual seeking, new- ageism, drug and other addictions and so on and on, and on; all of these taking place all over the vast stage called ‘the world’.

As hugely tragic or entertaining as it may appear to be, once we have played our roles with vigour and expectation, we will always find that all that is waiting for us is a laughing skull where our face used to be, which although bears a grotesque countenance, is at least the only loyal chaperone when all the others have gone. No winner ever takes anything home because there are no winners, losers or reality in any duality. All there ever was and is, is existence playing roles through reflections of light; having a relationship with itself through the idea of you and the story of your life.

Which brings us back to the start; it’s a choiceless observation that cannot be grasped. It cannot be controlled or managed or altered in any way.

It doesn’t matter what you do to adjust the ever-changing to suit your needs, it’s like trying to catch flour with a sieve. Better to realise that I am that.

In the dead of the night, I surrendered all ideas to the great swirl of electric existence
Sensations arose and passed away
History was made and ended
And another story began.

With or without me

It made no difference…

What in the World…

It’s been a little while I know….but I have been trying to strike a balance between a) the OC desire to seek ways of settling into comfort amidst the current bedlam of changes, and b) cultivating the art of mere and utter acceptance of what is happening right now without any embellishments (which seems to involve a lot of involutary twitching.) By the way, OC = obsessive compulsive, not Orange County or any text abbreviation you might think of.

I have been listening to the non dualists speak about their experiences of awakening from the dream. It’s very unworldly listening to these people speak about not existing but still being there as the background of what is happening, because it has a rather unhinging effect on the ‘I’, causing it to slip in and out of perception when you're not looking. Yes, it is terribly confusing for the OC mind that needs a rational explanation for everything. The nature of the egoic mind is to label, refer, understand and own. If it cannot do this, it becomes very agitated; note the increasing agitation of the ‘world’ as we desperately try to ‘make sense’ of the worrying events that seem to be occurring at great speed - although this is ultimately an agitation occurring in your own perception, it does not make it any easier to bear.

But the fact that these ideas about ‘reality’ are appearing in my life leads me to question why now and how do they fit into the frameless picture of everything? When I first started this so called path, I was told by certain teachers that this dawning of the new age that is being spoken of would be a recycling of a Golden Age, which has occurred many times before and continues to recur over and over again. This pure age will herald a time where people would drink nectar out of flowers and walk in the elysian fields of bliss. In accordance with this belief, many groups are attempting to bring about the manifestation of such an age by putting out the thought processes that will draw like energies and therefore create a manifestation. http://thesatyug.blogspot.com/ (paste link)

Concurrently, there is also an undeniable attraction that has recently overwhelmed my being and draws towards Adviata Vedanta or the non-dualists. By contrast to those who are focusing on repeating the cycle and bringing about the repetition of the Golden Age, Advaita is completely naked, with no frills, no references to any future or past and fully experiential right now. The experience of non duality is final with no returns and brings about a permanent end of dreaming.

The question is; will this new Golden Age that is supposedly so close on the horizon, just be a continuation of the dream, albeit a pleasant one? Or will we be functioning in an apparent world, fully awake and aware of the boundless unconditional love that animates all of existence.

And if it is a question of just repeating the cycle until we again degrade our purity and once again move into another Iron Age or age of pollution on all levels, then what would be the point of that? Would it not just be another illusion that we are buying into?

Every spiritual order has their view on how the world will end/change/evolve but it is also equally possible, if not probable, that no-one knows for sure and we may all be in for an impressive surprise. Even though some may vehemently assert that they have received their messages from the mouth of God itself, there is still no guarantee that what they have received is absolute. One has to consider that thoughts are the culprit here and since it is impossible to know the truth through your intellect – no matter how pure, perhaps the real purpose of all these stories, predictions and ideas, is to eliminate the mind by driving it hysterically insane, so that it might involuntary step to one side and allow the real obvious secret to be seen. And that is, that none of this really matters because perfection and unconditional love are not really concerned with an outcome that will give assurance to the human mind and it’s longing to be pleasantly satisfied at all costs.

That said, all of this could be a preparation for each apparent ‘one’ of us to break out of our mental prisons and witness the grand dissolution of all things from a place where there is no individual concern – or even where there is no individual present; i.e., no sense of ‘I’.

I have written of how we are possibly the manifestors of all that appears to be, and on some level, that is true. It may be that an apparent global event will spontaneously, simultaneously and synchronistically occur that will remove all blinkers at once and in so doing, bring about the sudden witnessing of all objects as they really are and not as we would like them to be. This would be an actual demonstration that nothing ‘out there’ has any inherent existence of its own and is a full projection of the collection of our owned thoughts and beliefs. This is the marvel of the dream; its complexity and its hypnotic glamour. Such potent seeing would of course instantly end all things that are based on inaccurate or invalid perception and perhaps THIS is what is meant by the end of the world because it would indeed terminate the ideas and illusions we hold about a thing called ‘the world’.

How Will the World End? According to 'A Course in Miracles':
“Can what has no beginning really end? The world will end in an illusion, as it began. Yet will its ending be an illusion of mercy. The illusion of forgiveness, complete, excluding no one, limitless in gentleness, will cover it, hiding all evil, concealing all sin and ending guilt forever. So ends the world that guilt had made, for now it has no purpose and is gone.”
http://en.wikisource.org/wiki/A_Course_in_Miracles/Manual_for_Teachers/How_Will_the_World_End%3F

If you find this too wordy and evasive to grasp, consider the words of Richard Bach:
“The mark of your ignorance is the depth of your belief in injustice and tragedy. What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.”

So I'll leave you with this parting thought: If there is no ‘you’, can there really be a ‘world’? When a caterpillar transforms into a butterfly, the caterpillar is no more, and neither is the world of its perception.

Until next time...

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